Primary World

As i’m typing, Dream Concert is on in South Korea. I wished I can be there now to see those stars.

Rather dull day today. Lazed around. Slept for around 12 hours ad still felt tired. Woke up cos of mum. I could have go as far as 4pm but I remembered about Music Core & others. Hee.

Fany & Yul last day MC-ing today. Gosh. Gonna miss you babes I’ll wait for another 3 weeks for your return <3 3 weeks.. will pass in a flash. I hope.

Fany with two ponytails, cute <3 Bias forever, but I have thought of changing her with Yoona. Gosh, 9 angels. My idols forever

The whole week went on fine~ Yesterday was the best. 3 periods got replaced by free-time. Gosh, i felt so happy ^^ Was having fun playing and stuffs and some !#$^&* came over. Spoilt my whole mood and everyone’s. Super duper unhappy at that point of time -.- Just imagine, you were having fun laughing and all of a sudden someone you hate the MOST came by. Ugh, I just gotta accept fate and move on.

She was in to give comments to most of the students. I am very SURE I will be included since my points didn’t reach her expectations. Ugh. I seriously regret cursing the one who took us last year. If i were to judge her now, she’s 10,000 times better than this one now. Double UGH. Regret, regret.

I regret not studying harder when I was younger.
I regret not studying well for examinations.
I regret the combination I am taking now.
I regret not liking Science sooner.
I regret not liking SNSD sooner.
I regret not liking Mathematics sooner.
I regret not cherishing my time in my activities.
I regret not working hard for my activities.
I regret not being fitter so that I have more chances of entering Sports School. (sounds so fake but I believe I could if I was fitter & smarter)
+ I regret letting Ainao use her Hair Foam onto my head which explains the ugly condition of my hair now -_-

So many regrets, but I never regret being friends with everyone I know. Our G7 + Ann, 4-year friends, Juniors, Primary friends, PENGPENG etc (sorry if I nvr mention ya). I never regret befriending all of you <3 May our friendship be forever

Gosh, talked about regrets, look at the amount of regrets I have, expecially the last few. LOL. I realise, if i was fitter, I could run faster, that place would be my home. Another thing I didn’t regret is, living.

Remember about me typing about me falling into depression at such a young age? Yea. I had the thought of dying at that point of time. Ain’t that scary? Wishing for death when you’re only 10. Thank Goodness I pulled it through cos of my friends at that point of time. I would have been a goner if I really chose to end life back then.

Ah, the past. tubi told me not to think about the past too much and let it go. Yes I will, babe ^^

This whole week of 7 days, required to say until 4pm to study intensively for Language 2. I don’t like it, but I love language 2 so I gotta do it! I aim for a freaking Grade A+ since I got an A- previously. Hwaitaeng to me! And I hope tubi gets an A too. Ainao is a regular A+ grader. Hope she on’t be too confident in her A+ ^^ cos I know she isn’t like that

Lessons in class shortened. I LOVE IT. Yea, lesser time in seeing that woman. I like that part but a nono if it skips Mother’s lesson. I Love Mother(s).

Sometimes during revision, I start thinking about certain people. How they behave towards me and how they behaved towards others. This thought, scares me. A lot. I can’t help to think about it.

Guess, I shouldn’t do this.

It hurts me more than knowing I can never be with someone.

The Cruelty.

Accept fate, and you’ll be fine