Primary World

Colour me.

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Oh no! I’ve been found out T^T My 2nd crush (stated in my previous post) found out that I have feelings for her/him/it. OH NO! I’m freaking out. What if, I GET IGNORED? What if, I GET HATED? What if, WE WILL NEVER GET ALONG AGAIN? What do I do? T_______T

Apparent, she/he/it cam and ask me yesterday, I don’t know what should I replied and luckily she/him/it went offline. But.. as usual.. If you know me, I will reply T^T 2NdCrush gotta leave the country and go back to her/his/its Motherland. So.. I won’t be seeing 2NdCrush for quite long ): She told me to not tell teacher about the reason and somehow teacher found out. Me and Ann felt like we told a lie. So second crush told me/us not to feel guilty. But teacher still thinks we’re exaggerating things. Ugh. I still feelz guilty.

Okay back to my luv story. “LUV” story.

Dorubie seems to be accepting my feelings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD I don’t need to fear getting ignored and stuff. wheeeeeee~~~~
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As usual, the first part of my post are crappy INSIDEofLIFE stuff xD Only the 3 (maybe 4?) of us know XD crappycrappy.

I don’t like life. Okay that was random.

I hadn’t been feeling good these days, as in my FEELINGs, not health. My health is always bad -.- Especially those pains I feel in my inner organs. I really feel like there IS something wrong with me. I never publicise such things before and probably, none of my friends know about this. There are sometimes where I’ll get those pains as I breathe. But the good thing is, it doesn’t occur as often already and another pain would be my poor little HAND. Yes, apparently someone body slammed me when my hand was flexing on the table. Yes you know who you are there ^^

And I feel so despised and I feel this world is crumbling onto me, again. I can only describe it as a stone or rock, being thrown at a group of ants. They run away and separate. ): Evil should stay with Evil and dont try to enter the Good. I guess only me and Dorubie understands this. Troublemaker, I dont like you. I never will. You’re spoiling my friends. You know you’re not likeable, anywhere.

Let’s talk about school. So, my 2nd language oral is over. PHEWWWW. Not much stumbling. But my nervous level WAS SO HIGH. There was this waiting seat, and I was trembling like nuts. I could withstand cold temperature but somehow I was trembling >_< Afterall, this is one of the components that adds up to my A-grade, which I hope I got it. I seriously need that A+ grade T^T

Wednesday seems to be a happy day. We will happily play sports together Oh should I say, GET INJURED TOGETHER? XD Hun pushed the ball to my face. ouch x_< I feel so hurt Luckily there are other concerned people Dorubie was very concerned ^^ and Ann could see that something wasn’t right in me. Hee. I feel blessed xD , but just for that short moment. Acting like a retard was prolly the best Imma do it next PE lesson …. Maybe not :l Interclass games are coming soon so yes, I can’t be doing that in front of public.

There are some things I was irritated about. Comments, comments, opinions. They don’t follow my mind, and I needa tell my mind that you can’t expect everyone to be the same as yourself. Sigh. Even twins have different minds.

Sigh. I lack entertainment these days. Just work and work. Everyday is a sad day anding at half past three. and on top of that, I am kinda sad I can’t take my Psychology course cos I’m not that smart. I wanna do Gerontology but i’m a little bit uninterested in some areas. Okay maybe I lied, there are MANY things that I wanna know about the contents of Gerontology. But nah, I’m just not performing up to standard. and Currently I’m slowly digesting that Molecule chapter. Rather slow, I know :<

Dang, my stomach feels bad. My appetite kinda decrease

I think I laughed the most on Friday. Dorubie kinda FORCED me to laugh. I didn’t wanna laugh cos the joke wasn’t really funny cos I hear it like everyday and when I see Dorubie laugh, I had no choice but to laugh too. I feel so happy and all of a sudden I’m all down again because I heard someone asked me to shut up. Only me. Hmph. As though I’m scared. naw naw naw.

I see changes everywhere. I don’t like it. But. I have to accept the fact that even the Earth changes so obviously people change too. If I could accept the changes done on Earth, why can’t I accept the changes in man? I guess,it’s because those changes aren’t for good

There is school for me/us today. All the more for a better grade. Hee. Got a text as early as 7:30am. From hun. I thought she was gonna leave at 8am and she still texted me. So then she told me she’s leaving at 9:40 == So we talkd for a while more before she officially leave this ground. As she leaves, 2AM is here in Singapore. XD Jokwon, ImSeulOng, JungJinwoon and Lee ChangMin, i CANT hunt any of you T^T But I will catch you all on TV tomorrow

Another week ahead. Catching Despicable Me tomorrow. Recommended by many. I wonder how good it is. I find the graphics cute ^^ I think I’ll enjoy it I need a break from all this stress.

If you don’t know what I hate and what I like, it’s better we be apart.

I’m currently into this song. Wings (날개) by Infinite.

lyrics and translation – http://xiaolink.wordpress.com/2010/06/14/infinite-날개-wings-lyrics/

Get well soon HunneyLee & Dorubie :> ♥