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I’m so moody. So so moody.

One makes me pissed off, and another makes me sad. So, I was supposed to go through the day with so much of mixed feelings; Happiness, Anger and Sadness. What a chore.

And to be honest, I’m still not stable.

That vision of her inviting me to be with her during year 1 camp, keeps replaying How am I gonna get over this fast? It’s affecting me a lot. The fact that we’re in the same class, makes it harder to forget everything.

You were an important person. Everything about you, I prioritise it. The other day during examination, I helped you a lot. Without a thanks, i don’t mind. Because you have never said thanks to me all the four years of knowing (okay except for the one you said thanks when i reminded you to bring something). I don’t mind cos it’s you. I skipped lesson, also because of you. You were like the only friend I can count on.
I remember you calling me late at night just to talk about your problems. It wasn’t a bother.
I remember us going to mall and you pointing at something you wanted.
I remember you taking the same bus when we were going back from mall just because you didn’t want me to be alone.
I remember that our qualifying scores were the same and said that our mind were the same.
I remember we took group shots together as a group happily.
I remember us emo-ing down the building.
I remember you telling me you wanna suicide but thank God, you didn’t.
I remember you being amongst the first to text me on my birthday.
I remember how we laughed at someone.
I remember how we shared jokes across the class despite our seats being far.

There are too many things related to you. Still I can’t believe you happily left me for a bunch of hooligans.

It’s so hard to accept the fact, I got backstabbed.

Thanks Christine for listening and advising me <3 I wouldn’t be standing up now if it wasn’t for you ^^ I’ll try to smile (: we should both get over this quickly, my new friend.
Thanks Dorubie my lub for giving me your support. I know you will always be there when i need someone (:
Thanks …

Actually there’s no point thanking everyone. It doesn’t get replied == And there are too many to thank.

The one about getting pissed off, i don’t wanna elaborate. It’s pointless if I say the same thing over and over again. I get tired, you know. You can continue your endless cycle, I’m not your mum to control you.

School wasn’t awesome either. I feel like staying at home and cry all day long. But nothing is gonna help. Like Christine told me, I should accept and move on even if it is gdamn hard. I’ll try. I’ll try.

Afterall, I have awesome people around me <3

I never had friends who stopped me from quitting school. (apparently i have another school on Sunday and I plan on quitting it but my awesome friends discouraged me and that’s why i am still schooling there.) Besides, I have known them since I was 7. Which makes it 9 years of knowing each other. and my regular schoolmates are not an exception. My crushes Dorubie & Horse stayed through me trying to pull me back together. How shweet. Horse felt sad for me and Dorubie was supporting me. EllyKim told me to be strong and Ann told me gave me support. I have awesome people around me and without them, I don’t know whether I will still be alive or not. But guys sorry, I’m still a little bit affected.

If I continue thinking about the past, I will never be okay..

And I’ve been sending people cold messages. I mean replies. And I feel bad. Gad, sorry people.

and EllyKim, don’t do that same thing in the bathroom ever again. You can get into trouble with law yknow (:

(please note: until here, it was a draft from 17/7/10.)

So the whole week, i did my usual studying. Monday and Tuesday was a lonely day for me Because Hunney and Ann wasn’t around on Monday and Tuesday Hunney just arrived back to this country. Hee. But the whole week was alright, until I got this news. Thanks Horse, for telling me even though you might not have imagined how much I was gonna hurt as I got the news (:

Sigh. I remember getting pushed by my friends to the ground on Thursday. YES THURSDAY XD I won’t forget it. I was walking from the back door. These two beloved friends of mine behind me and pushed me. Without realising, my weak knee bend and made me fall T^T But it was fun. Yea bet you havent found anyone saying that he or she fell and said it was fun ._.

My plan to dance Dashi Dorawa, FAILED. Gad. I’m still unsure of the moves Despite them putting up a dance version AND EVEN dance tutorial (i just found out!). Man, I gotta learn. To show my love

I guess, her backstabbing me wasn’t a big deal afterall. I’m all fine now. I hope i’ll stay this strong in school when i see her..

TIMEFORKPOP

It’s good to see Fany still shining as before despite having her vocal nodules again(like someone. she is having nodules and SHE SCREAMED). So yes, for 3 weeks already, Fany MC-ed for Music Core and she looks perfectly fine <3 Isn’t this just great?!!

And IY@Japan is sorta hilarious. I went to watch because Lee SoonKyu-sshi was in and I didn’t regret. Narsha is still like the mood maker, including Hara and Sunhwa and ofcourse, Kim Shin young And when i was in a bad mood, watching SunByung moments cheered me up ^^ Sunny in IY was really entertaining. It’s sad she gotta leave because of Soshi.

And, I’m in love with INFINITE. It’s the only new boy-group that is attracting me T^T Leader SunGyu has cute eyesmiles, Dance Machine Hoya has a nice face, Sungyeol being cute, L and his charismatic face, DongWoo and his Kenyan way, Sungjong the one who speaks too little and ofcourse Woohyun with his powerfullllllll vocals. I like/love/ADORE!

Sorry Soshi, esp Sooyoung (cos she told us not to cheat on them when they are in japan), I needa cheat on you guys a while But this is fine right? I’m just moving to a boy-group. Don’t be angry kkkkkk? XD

Friends, I love you <3